Do you ever get a crisis of confidence?

All around you are perfected airbrushed images.
Then you see those people in real life and it can be like seeing a totally different person.
Being in the world of fame must be hard due to that very fact.
You must constantly feel like you are not yourself!
Marilyn Monroe used to cry a lot, from what I hear, about the fact that everyone loved Marilyn but no one cared about her, plain old Norma Jean.

It makes you wonder if anyone truely feels confident and content with their lot.

It was said years ago that I would never be happy – it wasn’t meant negatively – it was meant that I am always striving for more. It’s true – I think you have to keep yourself on your toes to keep yourself learning and growing as a human being, otherwise you just stagnate and that’s not good for the soul, or for those around you.

Some days I sit and smile to myself, happy with all that I have. Yet with just a flick of a switch I am verging on tears, feeling like a failure, that has next to nothing in my life.

Why is this?
Hormones?
Comparing myself to others?
Maybe that is one of the biggest flaws we all have. Comparing ourselves to others? For at the end of the day – we don’t really know everything about anyone else – we only know what they let us know and a little of things we find out. Many people don’t even take the time to get to know themselve properly, so it’s no wonder there are all these crises of identies going on.

Today I might feel really blessed with all the friends I have, but tomorrow I might sit in a panic and start counting friends and feel like the biggest loser in town.

I am guessing reality lies somewhere in the middle.

If I just stopped sub-consciously comparing myself to others maybe I’d be OK.

I mean I do alright, I have a nice job, I have a small group of amazing people around me, I am studying a course, I am writing my second book, I am trying to learn to play piano, I enjoy photography, I know how to chill out and switch off, I enjoy and appreciate the outside world….so all in all I am probably not doing so bad.

Maybe I am seeking reassurance here or maybe I am trying to let you all know that you are probably ok too.

Mistakes…..I’ve made a few……but regrets…I’ve no time for those!

Sometimes, you know – once in a while – just like maybe ever day – you should stop and reflect.
It’s easy to become someone you don’t want to be.
Someone that you shouldn’t really be.
It’s easy to lose focus.
It’s easy to have never focused.
It’s easier to just keep your focus slightly diverted.

You’ll know the one’s that do this because they will be VERY quick to point out your flaws.
They will be quick to pick you up and correct you – you know, for your own good.
But the truth is, shhhh, step a bit closer, you don’t want them to know that you know their secret……
Really – now this is gonna shock you but really it’s because they are flawed. Like beyond the little dinks we all get in life – they come with huge chunks taken out of them and they don’t want you to see so they will keep on telling you how wrong you are but in a way that will make you thank them, you will feel that they are looking out for you but really they are just looking to make sure that when you trip they will see and be able to make sure they jump over you, wipe their feet on you and move on.
Now you will have fallen, you will be too busy picking yourself up and dusting yourself down. You will turn to talk to your trusted friend and will be floored again by the fact that they are not only not there, but they are running off in to the sunset.

You will sit back on your heels – dejected, head in hands you will go through all the things they said you were in that nice kind way of theirs. You will think oh my god look they are right – I MUST be all of those things because I am here on the floor and they are there in the sunset, moving forwards.
And this my friends is where you thought wrong.
You are taking the time to collect your thoughts, to pick yourself up and to dust yourself down, dusting off their veil of possession and freeing yourself.
Think of those cobwebs floating in the breeze, you can see them but suddenly they are all over you – you are trapped – you panic but then you find a way to brush yourself free and it feels great.
The person in the sunset now has another chink in their armour and are now becoming more moth eaten by the day. They still think it is your fault and have run, run so hard, so fast, they can’t stop running – when they do they hear something calling them – it’s not a voice telling them to run, it is their conscience but they panic and they run, they can’t be dragged down by you oh no no.
But you see it’s not you dragging them down – it is your strength that has been keeping them afloat, it is you that has been zapped, which is why you fall when you are finally cut free. That led weight has gone and for a brief second it makes you go limp.
You check yourself over, you note the new scars. You think about what has happened. You look at your mistakes, you look at theirs, you learn your lessons.
You stand up.
Suddenly you feel ten feet tall.
You hadn’t realised that for so long you had been cowering.
Walking around stooped.
Half the person you used to be.

And there you were thinking you had lost your other half.
But you see – we need to be grounded.
Not tied down but grounded.
It gives us a reality check.
Keeps things in perspective and gives us focus.
Without it we are free to float around causing destruction and floating away.
It makes us damaged if we keep doing that.
Eventually the damage will outshine the initial product and that is when you get left on the shelf.
For the person that picks themselves up, dusts themselves down and begins on their path again it is like shedding a skin.
They dust off that old wrinkly lack lustre skin and take on a new shiny slightly changed one and go off, sparkling into the world.
Remember that the next time someone shits on you and makes you feel that it is was your fault when you know really you were just human and didn’t do anything overtly wrong.
Be wary of the person quick to point the finger.
Be wary of the person that doesn’t reflect.
History repeats when lessons aren’t learnt.
Look around you. Genocide everywhere still because ‘man’ just isn’t learning.
Some people are flawed some are just floored (temporarily).
But you can change the course of history for the better – your own personal history – by just stopping for a second – reflecting – embracing it all – learning and moving onwards and upwards towards the next bright shiny star.

If someone breaks your heart please remember this advice

Don’t see it as things ending…..

See it as new things just beginning.

I’m just saying!

Think about it…..

Read it.
Absorb it.
Do it.

please!

A little positive note for you #5600002000001

Lessons in life number one billion and one